I have to think about it.  Sure, I’ve met some people who are great and totally accept me and do their own research.  But until they put a ring on it, I still have to worry.  And wonder.  And be afraid that every person I tell is going to judge me, and hate me.  Yes, they are stupid if they do that right away.  No, I don’t want them anyway.

I worry that if I find someone who does like me, we’ll both be so stressed out about trying to prevent transmission that we’ll end up breaking up and I’ll be stuck with one of the losers that has herpes.

I know that I am not alone in having to deal with it, but goddamn being 36 years old and having ovaries that are weeping makes it that much worse.